Once Upon A Desire

2012-01-19T22:41:00.001-07:00

RT @9newsdotcom Baby panda plays in Austrian snow http://ping.fm/vUM03 9NEWS

2012-01-19T01:25:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/nwTuY Please share Little Romeo and help us get him a home.

2012-01-18T16:28:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/OSXpv I like Paula Deen. She's a good ole fat gal like me.

OMFG stop the presses! Paula Deen has type II Diabetes!

2012-01-18T16:25:00.000-07:00

Paula Deen is...gasp...EATING! While fat! And she has the utter audacity to be enjoying it! The unbelievable temerity of this wench!

First of all, like Jane of xoJane said, we need to leave Paula Deen the hell alone. Her health is no-one's business but hers.

Here is what Aurora says:

Granted, I am an LPN nurse and not a doctor. But in my time as a caregiver I have noticed that people of ALL SIZES get diseases such as type II diabetes, hypertension, and heart disease and that these diseases are more prevalent in...get ready for it...OLDER PEOPLE! Curse you, Grandma and Grandpa for driving up our health care costs! Institute Carousel!

(For anyone who doesn't recognize sarcasm, there it is. And for anyone who doesn't understand the Carousel reference--shame on you! Go watch Logan's Run immediately.)

Paula Deen is 64. Type II diabetes is mostly hereditary and becomes increasingly likely with age. A person may feel crappy if they eat nothing but sweets, but you really can't "sugar" yourself into diabetes.

I like Paula Deen. She cooks for the enjoyment of it. She cooks real food that regular people can relate to, not stuff that most of us can't even pronounce. For her, cooking is about happiness, enjoyment, and sharing, not about being "ze great chef." I like watching Ze Great Chefs do their thing too, but I love Paula's anti-snobbishness. She is someone that I could really relate to.

So if anything, let's offer her our support. For gosh sake, quit picking on the woman. She seems like a pretty live and let live person. Let's do her the same favor.

2012-01-18T16:11:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/PImIq What Jane said. Butt the hell out of Paula Deen's health issues.

2012-01-18T07:52:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/tLRNN Here is something we should all get behind.

2012-01-18T06:17:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/BGBcC Must be a real challenge to kill giraffes with high power rifles. Assholes.

2012-01-18T05:56:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/djtRx My new blog post is about young motherhood & my thoughts on the show "Teen Mom"

Teen Mom

2012-01-18T05:46:00.000-07:00

My oldest daughter, who is in school training to become a clinical psychologist, convinced me to watch Teen Mom with her. My initial perception was that the show glorifies teenage motherhood, and I was appalled. It really does not. In fact, I would go so far as to say that every pre-teen girl (and boy) should watch the show.

I had a friend in high school who became a mother at 16, and is one of the best mothers I've ever known. However, she did have to quit school. She worked part time while her aunt watched her daughter, and she got her GED. She had a lot of help from her family and so everything worked out.

This situation seems to be the exception rather than the rule.

I was not a teen mother. However, I did marry young. I married my high school sweetheart at 19. We did not have kids right away, but when we had them they came in fairly quick succession. I had my oldest daughter when I was 22. I learned the hard way that you can become pregnant while nursing. It was probably the first time that my (then) husband and I had sex after Andi's birth that I got pregnant with Olivia. My daughters are eleven months and 27 days apart. So I ended up raising two babies at the same time. I jokingly refer to them as the twins born elevenish months apart.

This did put a strain on my marriage, but to Rick's and my credit, we did try to work it out. We had something of a honeymoon period when I got pregnant with our son, probably on Valentine's day of 1989. Jason was born prematurely on October 11, 1989. Rick and I were 25 years old, and our finances were demolished by Jay's and my medical bills. Essentially, this was the death knell for our marriage as well, but we tried to make it work for another five years.

Rick's and my breakup was as amicable as possible and not unexpected. But I felt like I had failed my family. Rick handled it better than I did. I went into a severe depression and am forever grateful for the times that my brother helped with his nieces and nephew. My son particularly benefited from my brother's kindness and support. I feel glad that my kids always had positive male role models in their lives, including my brother, my current husband, my dad, my uncles, cousins, and yes, my ex-husband too! Some single moms are not so lucky.

Having children, particularly so many in succession, is difficult enough on young adults--or perhaps on any adults not in a secure financial situation. The effects of teen pregnancy cannot be trivialized. It is difficult for everyone involved, particularly for the children. Most teenage parents break up, often the father does not remain involved in the child's life. I'm not saying that this is always the case, but it seems fairly prevalent.

My first husband and I will always treasure our children and thankfully we remained friends in spite of what frustrations we may have had with each other. But we were not properly prepared to have children even though we were adults. How can teenagers be expected to take on such a responsibility?

Although the Teen Mom show does NOT in fact glorify teen pregnancy, other forms of media (i.e. magazines and tabloids) do give these girls "15 minutes of fame," which I do not see as a positive thing. This, not the show itself, is what might encourage vulnerable girls to believe that they can gain the adulation they crave by getting pregnant.

15 minutes of fame is not worth a lifetime of struggle.

Children are precious. It is worth it to wait until one has one's own life in order to bring them into the world.

2012-01-18T02:38:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/ZR32q Great post: what if we called the weight loss industry its real name.

2012-01-18T02:09:00.001-07:00

Instead of finding fault with others' appearances, why not try to find something good? Maybe they have nice eyes or hair or a great smile?

2012-01-17T10:35:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/mkB3i The sun may be shining but if you're near Longmont it's a good day to stay in!

2012-01-17T03:43:00.001-07:00

Since I can't sleep I'm going to try writing. Not a contest this time, just my own thing. I don't want to play by anyone else's rules.

2012-01-17T03:36:00.001-07:00

Ok, wtf, Google chrome? Google Chrome keeps crashing.

2012-01-17T01:08:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/iTFWQ English Wikipedia to be blacked out in 22 hrs to protest SOPA/PIPA.

2012-01-17T00:20:00.001-07:00

RT @thedailylove The good news about the past is that it's over! The great news about the future is that you can CREATE it! TDL

2012-01-17T00:18:00.001-07:00

Health should be encouraged for children (and people) of all sizes. Larger children should not be singled out as Strong4Life/CHOA are doing.

2012-01-17T00:17:00.001-07:00

Dear @michelleobama I hope you will join us in asking Strong 4 Life & CHOA to rethink billboards which shame & encourage bullying big kids.

2012-01-16T19:07:00.001-07:00

Hey Colorado people! Longmont and Boulder County both on accident alert now.

2012-01-16T18:46:00.001-07:00

What is it with cats? Cat comes to sit on lap. Purr purr, knead knead, fart...happens so often that I shouldn't be taken by surprise but am!

2012-01-16T18:40:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/xhHoI Tell Congress to kill these dangerous bills that threaten our rights to free speech and free commerce.

2012-01-16T08:04:00.003-07:00

RT @natgeochannel Space Pictures This Week: Hubble Bubble, Dusty Dwarf http://ping.fm/T5B4M

2012-01-16T08:04:00.001-07:00

RT @jennymccarthy I woke up this morning & found this in the freezer. Guess somebody didn't want him to die. http://ping.fm/e1a2a

2012-01-01T13:21:00.001-07:00

"Government should exist to protect good from the forces of evil, not the other way around". - WATMAB Occupy2012 OWS

2012-01-01T05:54:00.001-07:00

Check out Michael Gettel – Cumbrian Autumn http://ping.fm/l9tL3 via @lastfm People I hope this year brings you wonderful things.

2012-01-01T02:13:00.001-07:00

RT @skeezixthecat Cat two hind legs and tail cut off but survived for 6wks. until someone found him and helped: http://su.pr/327mN9 1p

2011-12-31T23:42:00.001-07:00

Check out Biddu Orchestra – Black Magic Man http://ping.fm/xtUwr via @lastfm

2011-12-31T23:07:00.001-07:00

Check out Kostia – Sunrise http://ping.fm/Po4p2 via @lastfm With love to my friends and family--this one is especially for you guys.

2011-12-31T23:04:00.001-07:00

Check out Biddu Orchestra – Summer Of '42 http://ping.fm/P23Wz via @lastfm Come on, People, let's party like it's 1976!

2011-12-31T22:50:00.003-07:00

Oddly enough, I don't feel much like having a Rockin' New Year. I'm trying to bust through a monster writer's block & mellow serves better.

2011-12-31T22:50:00.001-07:00

Check out Ancient Future – Valley of the Moon http://ping.fm/Av4mX via @lastfm

2011-12-31T22:48:00.003-07:00

Enough prattle--time for tunes!

2011-12-31T22:48:00.001-07:00

You know you're getting old when your husband wants to spend his OT pay to do something nice for you & you're thinking let's fix the house.

2011-12-31T22:47:00.001-07:00

I know he'll have some interesting stories in the AM. Being an ER nurse on New Year's eve? Yeah...it's gonna be a wild ride, I'll bet.

2011-12-31T22:46:00.001-07:00

Now that we have that straightened out--I'm home on New Year's Eve. Would be happier if my husband hadn't had to work but will play tunes.

2011-12-31T22:44:00.001-07:00

Unless you're Borat, I'm not going to follow you back if your tagline indicates you want to make sexy time & you have a xxx URL.

2011-12-31T22:42:00.001-07:00

Folks, if you use your butt as your profile photo, chances are I won't follow you back. Unless it's a particularly funny picture.

2011-12-31T21:09:00.001-07:00

RT @eelkat RT @robriscoe: RT @cyf8: Repeat this affirmation all week as needed: "Murdering stupid motherfuckers will misalign my..."

2011-12-31T20:54:00.001-07:00

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."
- Oscar Wilde

2011-12-31T20:25:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/LkByX
For those of us who have resolved not to fall into the annual DIE-t trap.

2011-12-31T14:22:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/5IPrR Please show support for my friend & light a virtual candle for return of her cat.

2011-12-31T13:36:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/GbzEB This is pretty funny.

2011-12-03T23:19:00.001-07:00

http://ping.fm/Ndt2i Tolerance: it's a beautiful thing!

2011-12-03T22:16:00.001-07:00

@UPSjobs giving away nine $100 Zappos gift cards & up to $2K Grand Prize for U & UR friend! http://bit.ly/rLYLe5 urtc zappos

2011-12-03T16:06:00.001-07:00

Breaking news alert! The original Toblerones are definitely better than the dark chocolate ones. I love dark chocolate but not for Toblerone

2011-12-03T08:35:00.001-07:00

I hope my Facebook friends have been enjoying the automated daily Buddha and fortune cookie posts. Guess it's been awhile!

2011-12-03T08:33:00.001-07:00

Baby, it's cold outside!

2011-10-28T23:11:00.001-06:00

Check out Headmeat – Boern' Weelei http://ping.fm/yBYGF via @lastfm

2011-10-14T03:23:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/aO837 Only if you love cats will you understand.

2011-10-14T01:52:00.003-06:00

I know some people don't like having music video after music video, which is why my friends/family and I created the music pate.

2011-10-14T01:52:00.001-06:00

I'm an awful dummy--all those music vids except for Dead Skunk were only supposed to post to the Psychotic Brain Blend page. Oops.

2011-10-14T01:51:00.001-06:00

Now I know Germans can party more hardy than the people in this video were. They're the folks that gave us Oktoberfest, after all!

2011-10-14T01:50:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/wYQ0g Skunk: an animal that gets revenge if you kill it without even having to become a poltergeist!

2011-10-14T00:32:00.001-06:00

Hope you have enjoyed tonight's Top Ten list of Rhythm Guitarists. There are a lot more than ten great rhythm guitarists, share your faves!

2011-10-14T00:31:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/WQdIY John Lennon (RIP) - Hey Jude - The Beatles

2011-10-14T00:30:00.003-06:00

She appears at the top of every god damn page! Okay, I've said my peace, let's have one more rhythym guitarist for your listening pleasure.

2011-10-14T00:30:00.001-06:00

By the way, YouTube, I really do not give a flying rat's ass about the "girl in the smallest bikini I've ever seen." I'm kinda tired of her!

2011-10-14T00:22:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/D7bES Mats Björkman - Candlemass - Bewitched

2011-10-14T00:18:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/kbmt9 Ray Davies - The Kinks - Tired of Waiting

2011-10-14T00:08:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/X9ZnN K.K. Downing - Judas Priest - Love Bites

2011-10-14T00:02:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/z2ib7 Keith Richards - The Rolling Stones - Miss You

2011-10-13T23:53:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/KGHwM Gary Rossington - Lynyrd Skynyrd - Free Bird (RIP Ronnie, Steve, Cassie, Leon, Billy, Ean, Hughie)

2011-10-13T23:13:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/pOlzk Some people don't realize that blind cats can make good pets!

2011-10-13T23:09:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/wHwjK Read our 10 simple rules & join us at Psychotic Brain Blend Eclectic Radio on FB!

2011-10-13T22:24:00.001-06:00

RT @huffingtonpost Russell Simmons (@UncleRush) offers 2 pay 4 cleanup of OccupyWallStreet & avoid dispute w/city http://huff.to/nXv4A3

2011-10-13T10:06:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/Ej9RY This Week in Douche

2011-10-13T08:40:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/j62xM Analyze your beliefs. Do not believe unquestioningly. Use your head!

2011-10-13T08:26:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/e63qF Charles, Camilla, and Diana: Three's a Crowd

2011-10-12T12:01:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/IeTFo Eleanor Rigby

2011-10-12T11:34:00.001-06:00

RT @huffingtonpost New study says FDA underestimated cancer risk from contaminants in seafood after BP spill http://huff.to/rgvI9t

2011-10-12T01:16:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/AT2S2 Yes! I love this! Jesus is just all right w/me. Some Christians scare me though.

2011-10-12T00:52:00.001-06:00

I've had people who don't approve of Teh Gay ask what I'd do if one of my kids came out as gay. I'd LOVE THEM just like I <3 my gay brother!

2011-10-12T00:50:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/QfYMT Yesterday was Nat'l Coming Out Day. But you can come out today if you want!

2011-10-11T14:54:00.001-06:00

How the hell can I be having such a bad writers block when my subjects are vampires, a future Earth colony, and a megalomaniac dictator?

2011-10-11T14:52:00.001-06:00

You can't ping to Typepad until you authorize your Ping account to access Typepad. Even 10 yrs ago I wouldn't have known what this means.

2011-10-11T14:48:00.001-06:00

I made a Typepad blog http://ping.fm/KxOxw Mostly made it to comment at Views from a Broad http://ping.fm/BzqJu

Brain Blocked Like Slow Drain

2011-10-11T08:38:00.000-06:00

I have no idea why I'm having so much trouble getting this story out of my head and onto the computer. The idea is interesting but it comes out stilted. The two protagonists are sisters. I don't have a terrible relationship with my sister but I don't have a great one either. I have a much better relationship with my brother, but the story wouldn't really work if they were brother and sister.

My brother knows about my writing persona. My sister knows that I write but she doesn't know about my pen name or that I've decided to try and get some of my writing published. She tends to be super practical and think that such things are a waste of time. My brother and I have always been very supportive of each other. We were the "impractical" ones in the family.

Even though I grew up in a solid two parent family, I've always had abandonment issues. Sometimes when Nils has to work and I don't I feel very unsettled. I try not to be clingy but I really miss him when he's gone. I have borderline personality disorder and while I've learned not to manifest the more negative symptoms most of the time, sometimes I know I come off as very needy. He's very patient and never berates me or even raises his voice. I don't know what I did to deserve him. He always says he picked me because I'm me. Which I've never thought is anything so great.

I showed him the picture in the post from yesterday and said that it's ironic that I thought of myself as fat and ugly but thought that the model in the picture from yesterday's post, who has a similar body type to mine, was beautiful. He said "maybe now you understand a little how I feel when looking at you." He said it so tenderly that it brought tears to my eyes. That's how he always is. Even when I know he's tired he's always very careful and deliberate in how he treats people. Even his exasperating slacker brother, of whom he's said time and again "so much potential, so little initiative." SO TRUE!

It is ironic that it took this to make me understand that my husband could actually look at me and see beautiful. And a little bit sad. This society makes it so someone who looks like me has no idea how someone else could love them even when that person tells them time and again.

My husband puts up with the fact that I get jealous and afraid that he's going to find someone better and leave me. I hold it in better than I used to when I was younger, but he knows. He never berates me the way some of my past partners have. He always upholds me and soothes my mind. When he's home late it's never because he was at a bar drinking, it's because he stopped by the store to pick up something special, whether it be a little bouquet of flowers or the fixings for a simple meal that we can have together, or a movie and popcorn.

Sometimes I feel like we are Beauty and the Beast--only he's the beautiful one.

I'm trying to see myself in a better light. The picture below looks a bit like an idealized version of me. I like to look for pictures like this that show large women as fun and attractive rather than piggish and slovenly. Everyone deserves to feel beautiful!

2011-10-11T00:03:00.001-06:00

Why would anybody want to "subscribe" to my Facebook page? That sounds really stalker-y. I'm not famous enough to admire from afar!

2011-10-10T18:32:00.001-06:00

Up yours, McClown. Seriously. I chance indigestion eating your questionable fare to get a couple Monopoly pieces and I get nary a one! Booo!

2011-10-10T13:18:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/Arxam Never been much for the whole "sexy" costume thing. I prefer funny or scary.

I Don't Need a Celebrity to Tell Me How To Feel About My Body

2011-10-10T12:57:00.000-06:00

This isn't me, but it is a similar body type. I am five foot seven-ish. I weigh 295 pounds. I do not have any pressing health issues. According to our sizeist society, I should hardly be able to move and should have one foot in the grave thanks to my Death Fat.

In an IVillage article, various "celebrities" spoke about body flaws. A commenter named Lisa said that if she was pulling $80 million a year, she wouldn't care about cellulite either in response to Kim Kardashian's earth-shattering confession that she has the dreaded (gasp!) cellulite.

What Lisa said. I don't need Kim KarTRASHian or any other celebutante's opinion to tell me how to feel about my body. I spent a lot of years hating my body. I learned to be at peace with it because other people's opinions don't matter. As long as I'm healthy, that's all that matters. Being hateful to one another over what our bodies look like is ugly, and it needs to stop.

BTW, I am certainly not down on Kim for the shape of her body. What I dislike about her is the fact that she is someone who has absolutely everything and gives back nothing. $30,000 alligator skin purse, anyone? In an economy where people are struggling just to keep their homes and unemployment is at an all time high. Ugh!

Why is it that when I look at my body, which is similar to this one in a mirror, my automatic reaction is to think "ugh, I'm so fat and ugly" but when I see the woman in the picture, I think she's beautiful. How dare society tell us to hate our bodies? How dare people say snarky things about fat people?

I have a back injury which makes movement harder some days than others, but it had nothing to do with my size and a hell of a lot to do with the type of work I do. I work in a hospital. I help weak and injured patients move. Sometimes its harder than others. And I've gotten hurt a few times. Last winter I exacerbated things by falling down the back porch steps. This had nothing to do with my size and a whole lot to with low visibility and ice. I was on temporary disability for 6 weeks.

I became very depressed because I couldn't work and felt useless. If the stereotypes were true, I should have been thrilled to stay home and eat buckets of fried chicken and boxes of bonbons. Instead, I could hardly eat because I was so depressed.

I'm 47 years old, I'm fat, and I've been married for 9 years to a man who eats about the same amount that I do and remains rail-thin. He is not a "fat fetishist," he dated women of various sizes before ending up with me. I consider myself extremely lucky to have him! Not because he's thin, but because he's an amazing, loving, considerate, kind, funny, intelligent human being.
The sad thing is, if I hadn't been able to find a man, (and I certainly kissed a few toads before I did) I'm sure I would have blamed my body, as we are conditioned to do. How wrong is this? How sad and how awful to go through life hating ourselves.
This is why size acceptance is necessary!

2011-10-10T12:37:00.001-06:00

Stay outta my inbox, Spammers!

2011-09-26T05:54:00.001-06:00

RT @chrisvoss Challenge is a dragon with a gift in its mouth. Tame the dragon and the gift is yours quotes Noela Evans

2011-09-26T05:48:00.001-06:00

As it turns out in life, skin and bones may heal quicker than emotional wounds. ~David Kessler

2011-09-26T05:47:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/2qZnN It has got to stop. We have to realize that this is a real problem.

2011-09-26T05:44:00.003-06:00

Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up. ~Jesse Jackson

2011-09-26T05:44:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/ljWkr Bullying--gosh, it's great! (NOT!)

2011-09-26T05:32:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/qEuF6 It feels like an uphill battle but it must be fought.

2011-09-26T03:49:00.001-06:00

RT @thevoidcomic TODAY'S COMIC: aspiring writer(or in fact any writer) http://ping.fm/a9Vlw comics webcomics writing amwriting

2011-09-26T03:47:00.001-06:00

RT @chrisvoss Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work. - Thomas Edison

2011-09-26T02:19:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/T0Og2 Dumb da dumb dumb DUUUUUMMMMBBB!!!!

2011-09-26T02:11:00.001-06:00

RT @flipbooks "Life is the art of drawing without an eraser" ~John W. Gardner quote

2011-09-26T02:10:00.001-06:00

800-Year-Old Remains of Witch Discovered in a Graveyard in Tuscany, Italy (MailOnline) http://dld.bz/arB2f Archaeology News

2011-09-26T00:13:00.001-06:00

Check out Bonnie 'Prince' Billy – When Thy Song Flows Through Me http://ping.fm/TqHL9 via @lastfm

2011-09-25T23:55:00.001-06:00

http://ping.fm/sQJUM But of course I have fat jeans--they're the only kind I can fit into! ;-D

2011-09-25T22:56:00.003-06:00

Gross but true: "As the dog returns to his vomit, so the does the fool to his folly."

2011-09-25T22:56:00.001-06:00

Check out Horse Feathers – Walking & Running http://ping.fm/EnXQs via @lastfm

2011-09-25T22:42:00.001-06:00

Check out Great Lake Swimmers – Your Rocky Spine http://ping.fm/MhLjC via @lastfm

2011-09-25T22:37:00.001-06:00

Check out Iron & Wine – Jezebel http://ping.fm/9eYPF via @lastfm I feel like Folking around tonight.

2011-09-25T22:15:00.003-06:00

Check out Young Knives – Voices of Animals and Men http://ping.fm/jsCCb via @lastfm Shout out for an up and coming artist