Thursday, November 18, 2010

Once Upon A Desire: Of Dreams and Action

Of Dreams and Action

Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living.
Anais Nin

I am beginning to question the wisdom of having a snarling Tasmanian Devil as my desktop picture. A real Tasmanian Devil, not the cartoon.

A psychotic is a guy who's just found out what's going on. -William S. Burroughs

Damn you, Pepperidge Farm! Damn you and your delicious cookies and crackers!

I got a word verifier that said "farthing spokesmen." Get into the Beavis and Butthead mindset & guess what I thought it said! Huh huh huh!

Hoping that we can qualify to refinance. After having to max out credit cards to pay medical bills, I'm not too sure if we'll qualify. :-/

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Risks for Stomach Cancer

The singer Ronnie James Dio recently passed away from stomach cancer. His wife said that he rarely ate vegetables and his favorite foods were meats, pasta, and bread. He also enjoyed his wine. His wife encouraged people to be assessed for their risk of stomach cancer and to increase the amounts of fresh fruits and vegetables in their diets as that is one of the easiest things a person can do to prevent this disease.
Ronnie was Italian and I wonder if people of Mediterranian heritage are more prone to diseases such as stomach cancer, and if so, is it because of a genetic predisposition or because of diet.

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Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Don't wrestle with a pig. You will get dirty and the pig will enjoy it ~ Mark Twain

RT @guy_finley Stop Giving Yourself Good Reasons to Feel Bad >>

RT @tweetsmarter Cabbie Charges $800K for Ride…but guy is so rich he doesn't notice: /via @LaughItUp

Handbook for Life: 52 Tips for Happiness and Productivity | THE CHRIS VOSS SHOW

RT @ainebelton Trust in the beauty of your dreams, know u deserve them, take steps w/ courage & faith, & believe.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Glory Daze - Hartley Sawyer As Brian Sommers - Actor Biography & Profile -

I've been cleared to go back to work this Friday night and I've been readmitted to the nursing program. It was a good day!

Once Upon A Desire: My Two Cents Worth on Kristin Stewart

My Two Cents Worth on Kristin Stewart

As a person, Kristin Stewart seems like an intelligent,  sensible, down-to-earth young lady. I have read interviews with her and think that she has a much better grasp on things than many of today's young celebrities. She dresses modestly, doesn't see the need to party all the time, hasn't been in and out of rehab, and doesn't flash her privates while exiting limousines. I very much like and appreciate Kristin Stewart the person. The world would be a better place if more young people looked up to her than to the likes of Paris Hilton and Kim Kardashian.
Kristin Stewart as an actress is, I'm sorry to say, terrible. Her style is completely wooden. It isn't only her performance in Twilight that I have an issue with. I'm watching her in a 2004 made for TV movie called Speak, and I have to say, if she were a teacher, her voice would put me right to sleep. Her delivery is utter monotone. 
It may in part be the roles that she's been given of the depressed teenager who perceives herself as awkward. I have not seen her performance in The Runaways yet, but given her track record, I have to say I'm a bit reluctant to give it a look.

RT @horrormovies Ron Jeremy is a Werebear.. Wait.... What!?!

RT @horrormovies John Cusack is Edgar Allan Poe - First Image

Cake Wrecks: Clean Out Your Fridge Day

RT @palidan "If a window of Opportunity appears, don't pull down the shade." Tom Peters.

Ironic that my last status update on 9/5 was about my back hurting. Then I went out. It was raining, I slipped on steps & hurt back bad.

Johnny Depp is a favorite actor, Angelina Jolie is a favorite actress. Think The Tourist will be good.

Going to the doc this afternoon to see if I can go back to work, then to school to see if I can get back into nursing program. X fingers!

Guess it's been a while since I was social or since I networked. Thank you new people who have friended me. :-)

Crazy cat just tried to steal the magnesium tablet out of my hand! Magnesium is one of those nice natural laxatives. Cat does not need!

"Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town." -George Carlin

The first Poison Ivy movie was kind of interesting and dark. The next two were just dopey.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Ooh---my lower back is killing me this morning!

Saturday, September 4, 2010 Van Gogh Complex Bipolar Artists' Community Fibromyalgia Aware

I have been unnaturally tired lately. Major brain fog too.

Once Upon A Desire: Joel Osteen Needs A Damn Good Whackin'

Joel Osteen Needs A Damn Good Whackin'

 Do not their smug, self-satisfied mugs inspire the desire to bitch-slap them straight to Kingdom Come?

This was my response to a brilliant post at My Fat Life.
I've always wanted to slap Joel Osteen's smug mug. He and a lot of the New Age gurus have a lot in common. Their philosophies blame the have-nots for their condition. If you just BELIEVE you are wealthy RIGHT NOW, then you will be wealthy, and if you are not wealthy it's because you aren't believing strongly enough. Makes me want to do some chokin'!
I so agree with you about Oprah as well. Get thee to a doctor. Well, a lot of people can't afford to go! I only go for my yearly (it becomes kind of a semi-yearly) once-over and if I'm near death. It isn't just the cost of seeing the doc--the labs cost an arm and a leg too.

the double sided sword of a reversible button « MY FAT LIFE

V-Bloc - new hope or old spin? -

‎"Get back its a heart attack And the planet needs a dr. We can tell it looks like hell, But they make us close our eyes."- Ronnie James Dio

News - Writing Contest

I love misreading stuff! In the FB sidebar there was an ad for Demand Studios but I read it as Demented Studios and thinking that was cool.

Once Upon A Desire: Long Time No See

Long Time No See

I haven't done any social networking or even worked on my story in almost two months. I got really worn down and then ended up getting sick and depressed. I decided to hold off on my final semester of nursing school and just take an online course instead. Instead I'm focusing on being supportive of my son while he goes through paramedic training. He says it helps to have someone help him study. Husband is actually a better source though because he trained and worked as an EMT early on after immigrating here.
Sometimes things come back and bite you on the ass no matter how much your life improves. I realize that I'm still very insecure. I started questioning what made me think I had any kind of talent for writing, and wondering who reads erotica anyway. And then I find myself wondering always what a handsome, slender guy like my husband sees in an old fat chick like me. I started getting paranoid to the point where I was thinking he must be looking around by now--after all, he dated this supermodel looking girl before we were together. He laughed it off, reminding me that surely since I work in the hospital too I must know that people don't actually make out in supply closets or unoccupied gurneys or beds like on E.R. or Gray's Anatomy. (I did know a couple who ended up making it on a slab down in the morgue once, no joke. Not for me! Laughed my ass off when they told me, though.) Still, I know it bothers him a bit when I start getting paranoid like this. I can't let it screw things up for me.
I'm going to try working on my story even though I still feel insecure about it. I've written this stuff all along for myself but doing it with intent to publish is something else entirely.

Saturday, July 10, 2010 The Rebeca Cutler Foundation About Richard Strauss

In loving memory
of every cancer patient who have lost their battle
with cancer the ones that continue to fight and for those who
have won!

Ronnie Dio and the Red Caps: An Angel is Missing

Happy birthday, dear Ronnie. You are very much missed.

In memory of Ronnie James Dio on his 68th birthday. Much love! m/ m/

Friday, July 9, 2010

Credit scoring is a racket. My cousin has always paid her mortgage & student loan on time, has cleared up most other debt, still can't win.

I'd open my blog for comments if there would be real people commenting instead of spam bots. Sheesh. A little adult content = spam magnet!

86,919,792 gallons of oil leaked into the gulf and counting. bp gulfoilspill

Once Upon A Desire: End the barbaric practice of stoning

End the barbaric practice of stoning

Dear Friends,

Yesterday an Iranian woman, Sakineh Mohammadi Ashtiani, was saved by global protests from being stoned to death.

But she may still be hanged -- and, meanwhile, execution by stoning continues. Right now fifteen more people are on death row awaiting stoning in which victims are buried up to their necks in the ground and then large rocks are thrown at their heads.

The partial reprieve of Sakineh, triggered by the call from her children for international pressure to save her life, has shown that if enough of us come together and voice our horror, we may be able to save her life, and stop stoning once and for all. Sign the urgent petition now and send it onto everyone you know -- let's end this cruel slaughter NOW!

Sakineh was convicted of adultery, like all the other 12 women and one of the men awaiting stoning. But her children and lawyer say she is innocent and that she did not get a fair trial -- they state her confession was forced from her and, speaking only Azerbaijani, she did not understand what was being asked of her in court.

Despite Iran's signing of a UN convention that requires the death penalty only be used for the "most serious crimes" and despite the Iranian Parliament passing a law banning stoning last year, stoning for adultery continues.

Sakineh's lawyer says the Iranian government "is afraid of Iranian public reaction and international attention" to the stoning cases. And after Turkey and Britain's Foreign Ministers spoke out against Sakineh's sentence, it was suspended.

Sakineh's brave children are leading the international campaign to save their mother and stop stoning. Massive international condemnation now could finally stop this sickening punishment. Let's join together today across the world to end this brutality. Sign the petition to save Sakineh and end stoning here:

In hope and determination,

Alice, David, Milena, Ben and the whole Avaaz team


Iranians still facing death by stoning despite 'reprieve', The Guardian:

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Depression is such a useless state of mind. I hate it when it happens to me. It's different from "the blues." Can't just talk yourself up.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

The Fat Broad Speaks on Size Prejudice

Size prejudice is very real and very ridiculous. This world is tough enough, we should be kind to each other. I work in the medical profession and there are healthy large people and unhealthy skinny ones, as well as the other way around. Also the idea that all fat people are lazy gluttons is erroneous. Most big people work hard although some have handicaps that keep them from doing so. Don't judge what ya don't know--that's what I taught my own kids.
For what its worth, my husband is very slender and he is not a "chubby chaser." He doesn't have a fetish for heavy women. The woman he dated before me had super-model looks. He and I were just friends at the time. One of the reasons he stopped dating her was because she was so obsessed with her appearance that she spent all the time fixing her makeup, talking about dieting, makeup, or working out, and putting down other people's looks. My man is a very easygoing guy and he didn't care for that attitude. We fell in love with each other's personalities. Though he really is adorable, and I, of course, am drop dead sexy! ;-D 
My husband and I don't talk about our exes much, but I have to say that I disliked this gal from the time I met her on instinct and the more he told me, the more I disliked her. The reason she started dating him? His sexy European (Norwegian) accent. Thereafter she picked him apart and tried to change everything about him. She was always after him to go to the gym, bulk up, and get hair plugs. If he cared about doing any of those things I'd support him, just like he supports my efforts to lose weight when I'm inspired to try to do so. But we love each other as we are. Dating someone for what they COULD be is always an exercise in failure. Believe me, I know. I did it many a time in the past. "He COULD BE a really great guy if he'd just stop drinking." Yeah...I know that one all too well!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Shame on BP. Every time I see the dead sea life covered in oil I feel sick, sad, and helpless. Shame on the human race. Greed destroys. 36,824,349 gallons of oil leaked and rising. There is a counter and live video at the bottom of my blog

Once Upon A Desire: Botox Porn

Botox Porn

This was my response to this article.

Botox porn--nasty!
I'd much rather see someone who had allowed themselves to age naturally. Then again, I don't understand why anyone would want to appear in a sex tape. Unless it's your profession or you're completely self-absorbed and really think other people want to watch you having sex, it's simply an idiotic move.
I honestly don't understand the appeal of those "Real Housewives" shows, porn or no. A bunch of self-absorbed kept women throwing hissy fits because they aren't getting attention from everyone on the planet is not my idea of entertainment.

A watched pot never boils. A forgotten pot boils dry and stinks up your house.

Some jerk from a number in Washington that I didn't recognize called multiple times, so I finally answered. They were trying to sell Viagra!

First day I'd been able to sleep well in a while because its nice and cool and the stupid cats woke me up fighting with each other. Grrrr!

So happy its only supposed to get to 75 degrees (Fahrenheit) today. I'm really not one for this 90 degree stuff.

Back in the Day

A Facebook friend's status reminded me of something funny. I did so much drinking in my first year of college that I literally had to look down and make sure I was wearing pants before I left for class in the morning. God, I don't know how I did it! Staying up till 2 AM getting smashed almost every night, then going to 8 AM classes every morning. My grades started kinda sucking (surprise!) so I decided I'd better get serious. If I abused my body like that now, I'd be dead in a week!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Wow, could this internet connection be slower??

Sunday, May 30, 2010

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Once Upon A Desire: The End?

The End?

I'm actually approaching the end of my first manuscript, and now I'm getting really nervous. I'm going to have to find an editor. My cousin is going to help me with the initial proof reading but says that I'll have to find a REAL editor in order for it to be really professionally done. This makes me nervous, especially with my subject matter. My cousin knows who I really am. But my subject matter might make me seem, for lack of a better word, perverted, to anyone who doesn't. I don't want to be perceived that way. 
I think of my manuscript as part allegory for what anyone who has ever struggled with understanding their own sexuality goes through, particularly what gay people go through in this society, but also anyone who was ever molested and who has had pervasive, unwanted thoughts or dreams. Nothing such as wanting to molest children, although I encourage anyone who has unwanted thoughts about desiring sexual contact with children to please GET HELP, of course. If you get help, you are doing the right thing and are a far better person than someone who acts on those impulses.
My shame has come from having dreams or fantasies or being turned on by watching porn (same sex, either all male or all female) in which someone is being humiliated. Not rape, but S&M. I don't want to do this in real life. I've come to understand that these thoughts are because of things that happened to me in childhood but I've never really dealt with these issues properly. I always find myself too busy to get therapy. I count myself fortunate that I have never experienced being sexually drawn to children. I have heard people try to postulate that this is a "sexual orientation" like being homosexual, which pisses me off. Most people who are homosexual are attracted to people in a similar age group to themselves who happen to be the same sex. Duh!
At any rate, I now need to find an editor who is amenable to dealing with erotica. This is a lot more difficult than simply writing down what has come to mind!

Sunday is housekeeping day. Ugh! I don't get people who find housekeeping therapeutic. Cooking, yes. Housekeeping, no.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

frontline: the new asylums | PBS

Friday, May 28, 2010

Horror is: walking to the basement to put in a load of laundry, seeing freeloading BIL lying on couch w/hand in pants scratching balls.

`Diff'rent Strokes' star Gary Coleman dies

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You know that hopefulness you have when you're young and too stupid to know any better? I wish I could bottle that. I'd make a fortune!

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Holy crap...the incredible stupidity of some people is earth shattering. If being stupid were a crime, these people would be lifers.

I find myself wondering WTF purpose a Kendra Wilkinson is supposed to serve on this planet. She seems more useless than a Kardashian.

Thursday, May 27, 2010 Meet my co-worker and my brother in law.

Alison Wonderland and Lars Freelöder

So tonight I'm stuck working with Alison Wonderland. Thankfully she went to take her break and hopefully I'll have a few minutes before anyone needs something. Usually I'm a pretty sedate person, live and let live, but Alison tends to make me wonder how she survived this long without a brain, and why a hospital, where people's lives depend on our actions, would ever hire her!
Alison isn't new to patient care. She's been doing it for eight years. I've been stuck working with her for the last five. Fortunately I don't have to work with her all the time or I might have killed her by now.
Alison's main focus throughout the night is touching up her makeup, of which she wears about an entire department store counter worth. Apparently she was talked to about her smelly hair spray and gallon of perfume because she's started wearing unscented hair spray. But hello Barbie, it's the night shift in a hospital! We are taking care of sick people. They don't give a crap if your makeup is perfect or even if you're wearing makeup. They're sick, they're hurting, they're scared. They want us to tell the nurse if they need pain meds. They want us to bring them water. They want us to reassure them. They are not looking at you and thinking how amazing you look. They're wishing they were anywhere but here.
Also, you have to explain everything to Alison, step by step. Even the simplest stuff. As I said, she's been doing this sort of work for eight years. I don't know whose dick she's sucking, but I can't imagine how else she keeps her job.
Sorry...bitter bitch.
I probably wouldn't be so down on Alison even though I'm afraid my eyes are going to get stuck in the rolled-upward position every time I work with her because they end up their so much. I was already in a foul mood when I arrived because of having to deal with my brother in law, Lars Freelöder. It's hard for me to believe that he and my husband came from the same womb. Actually its hard for me to believe that my husband came from that family at all. He's hardworking and warm-hearted. Lars actually has a good heart but to be honest, he's a SHIFTLESS BUM! Every time he has a good job he gets bored with it and quits. Now he's 51 years old and nobody wants to hire him. 
If it weren't for my being here, N would probably take pity on his big brother and let him live in his house and sponge off him--he's done it before. But he doesn't want our relationship turning into "You, Me, and Dupree" any more than I do! He's "loaned" his brother money (full well knowing he'll never get a cent of it back) and told him he needs to find a job and get his own place. Lars doesn't technically live with us but he's here a lot more of the time than I'd like. He's going to try to go sponge off his eldest son for a while. Poor kid--good luck ever getting rid of him! Imagine having to kick your own dad to the curb. I told him not to let Lars in the door in the first place. People like him are vampires. They can only come in if you let them, and then they bleed you dry. I know this sounds harsh but Lars made his own bed. He refuses to grow up. He keeps wanting to "party hardy." His immaturity ruined his marriage. If it weren't for little brother having some ambition (and wanting to get away from his cold ass relatives) Lars would still be back in Norway, living in his parents' basement. It was N that insisted they immigrate to the U.S. He was just 19 at the time, Lars was 30 and going nowhere. Which is where it seems he's determined to keep going.
I could get on about how today's immigrants want something for nothing, but I don't really have time to go there. My husband and his brother worked hard to get their citizenship. They took classes. Both of them are very strong English speakers. One of them is also industrious.
I'll put a wrap on this as I see Alison returning to her post, freshly made up and doing her pageant walk. Here go my eyes, rolling upward again.

I hate to be horrible and negative co-worker is a simpleton and my brother in law is an immature freeloader. I pity his kids!

aurorahylton If I don't get back to work I'm going to have to change my screen name to Aurora "Procrastination Queen" Hylton.

I called my congressman and am hoping he'll say "repeal Don't Ask Don't Tell" today!

Some of these FB games look so fun but you have to play them every day. Is it stupid that dead virtual fish would bother me?

aurorahylton Surprised at the amount of trouble I'm having making myself write this chapter. One of my protagonists attempts suicide.

Donate Clothes & Household Items

Helping my cousin pick out a new combination washer/dryer since her 15 year old washer died. We live such exciting lives! ;-)

Again I have to apologize if one of my statuses double posted. Ping is on crack right now.

Does listening to death metal warp young impressionable kittycat minds? I know what it does to birds!

Does listening to death metal warp young impressionable kittycat minds? I know what it does to birds!

Someone needs to tell Skittles that my putting him off my lap so I can stand up does NOT constitute abuse. He meows so mournfully when moved

Corrective rape??

aurorahylton I like the new twist in my story though. It gives it a stronger message than just "I think it's okay to be gay." Which I do.

aurorahylton Why do I sometimes wrestle with whether or not I DESERVE to work on creative activities? This is seriously detrimental.

Once Upon A Desire: Comments


I am temporarily disallowing comments on the blog. I haven't really done anything with this blog yet that's comment-worthy, and the only comments I've been getting are canned Spam comments from Chinese webcam girls and other spammers. I reject each of these, but I don't want to have to be bothered. When I finish writing my manuscript and am actively promoting it, I may open up comments again. In the meantime, anyone who knows me is already contacting me in other ways and people who actually want to communicate can follow me on Twitter or friend me on Facebook.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Am glad I was never stupid enough to make a sex tape--and believe me, so are you! Am I the only one who doesn't want to see celeb sex tapes?

Skittles is trying very hard to win the bad kitty award today. This time he jumped in my lap and made me splash my chicken noodle soup.

9 Gifts NOT To Give Your Mother This Year (PHOTOS)

Honestly, most of these weren't so bad unless you're some sort of hideous diva who expects diamonds and no less. The baby sort of depends on the age and marital status of the "giver."
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

The Funniest Kids Test Answers Of All Time (PHOTOS)

Two older kitties too--Angus and Malcolm. They're 12. So any guy who ended up with me had to like both cats and classic rock. Found one!

Kitty's name is Skittles cause he was so skittish when we first brought him home. His "sister" is Coco.

Wish my man was home but then again I hate for him to have to deal with me when I'm like this. Feel like I'm catching a cold too.

Maybe I can fall asleep watching disaster porn. Magma: Volcanic Disaster is on Syfy. Anyone else hate how it's spelled Syfy and not SciFi?

Usually he's better behaved about this sort of thing than his little step-sister. Guess he really likes quiche.

Kitty's being a dildo. Guess its what I get for eating my lunch on the couch. He kept sticking his face in my food.

Sorry if that last message double posted.

Really wish I could relax. Like the shift differential but not much else about night shift. Find myself moody & flirting w/depression.

Really wish I could relax. Like the shift differential but not much else about night shift. Find myself moody & flirting w/depression.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Just it really necessary for the antivirus program to make a sound like a Sleestack when it discovers a virus? Sex and Spam and Spilling My Guts. A blog post.

Sex and Spam and Spilling my Guts

First of all--wow! I had forgotten about this video. Bummer that N will be exhausted when he gets home from his shift. :-(
Second, WTF is up with these Spam comments? I even have word verification turned on and I'm still getting them. An attempt to get some business for some Chinese webcam models, it looks like. Sorry, can't help you. I don't publish Spam comments. I changed my settings so only Google members can comment. Don't know if that will help the matter or not. Half the comments are in Chinese so I have no idea what they're saying anyway.
I'm sitting with my little grand-niece tonight. Both my niece and my sister are working. Grand-niece is three years old. Niece is 21 and living with her mom. Baby's father is nowhere in the picture, sadly. My niece's father and my sis got divorced a year before she got pregnant. Her father was one of those people who was physically present but emotionally unavailable. Which is pretty much what sis and I grew up with as well. I always thought how we could have had it a lot worse--we didn't get smacked around or molested--at least after we moved away from Uncle Creepy. What I mean is my parents didn't molest us. But we didn't get a whole lot of acknowledgment of our existence either. Emotionally my family was pretty cold. 
My first husband was a nice enough guy in most ways but didn't really know how to be emotionally available either. He's an adult child of an alcoholic and never worked through his shit. I've been through a lot of counseling about my intimacy issues and N and I went to counseling together when it became clear that things were serious between us because he comes from an emotionally distant bunch too. Across the ocean distant at this point, only call each other on holidays. It was pretty easy for me to see why he and his brother left Norway. His parents are glacial. Very proper, very staid, and very cold. I don't think I ever saw them smile once when we visited. It's amazing that he and his brother were able to be emotionally expressive at all. 
J's a good guy but kind of a Peter Pan. He's got a steady job but he's 48 years old and still all about partying hardy. Was married 5 times and live-in girlfriend #7 just dumped him. He's charming as anything, but once any woman starts wanting some real substance from him, he just doesn't have anything to give. Out of all his marriages he's got one kid of his own and two step-kids who still see him. The rest were pretty short-lived and no kids came out of them. 
He's the quintessential Disneyland Dad too. Kind of like my ex. The kids were always so excited to see him when they were younger. Of course they still love him but at this point they're kind of disgusted with how much of a flake he can be. He's always job hopping and never saved a cent towards their education. In the end they always end up coming back to the boring, reliable parent. I'm not saying I'm anything to look up to--46 years old and a patient care/ER tech might not be much to brag about. But I've been at my job for eight years and I've helped my kids with their college applications. I've always been here for the serious stuff. "Al" always brought them presents and took them on trips before the economy went to shit and he spent all his savings.
At this point I consider myself pretty lucky and am reasonably happy in most ways except central scheduling seems to be conspiring to ensure that N and I never have any time together! And my nursing training is dragging on and on and it's kind of starting to make me feel discouraged. I was so excited about doing it at first and so thrilled that N was completely supportive. I think it wouldn't have been so bad if I could have done it all at once and gone full time but I can't. We still have a mortgage to make. So it's taking forever. Sometimes I wonder if remaining a tech would have really been so bad. But I've wanted to get my license for a long time. Sometimes I get so mad at myself. Seems like I'm never satisfied.

Staying with my grand-niece tonight as both my sister and my niece are working. Not gonna sleep for s**t--too used to working nights lately.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Things in the sidebar: reconnect with people from the class of 1981! The question is, how many of them do I want to reconnect with?

I will never, ever, ever get Botox! I would rather have a face like a Shar-Pei than get a deadly bacteria injected into my skin.

1000 ways to die...why am I watching this? I have to say, some of these people are candidates for Darwin awards!

Is anyone else having trouble with firefox crashing--a lot? Several times a day? I'm so over it--but Internet Explorer freezes!

The Squad

My cousin has a cute little black cat named Tara. I've renamed her Terror. She looks so sweet and demure. SO NOT! Pushy little glutton.

Word Captcha: Eventide Equipment. In my profession that means needles, sutures, IV catheters, ECG's, X rays--that sort of thing!

Dear Facebook, I already confirmed my account and I don't want to receive your stupid text messages. So STFU! You're annoying me.

Testing my Facebook connection to Ping. Saying hi to my cousins!

Drag--cousin isn't an option on Facebook relations. My sister and brother don't want to be associated with my erotica writing persona!

Keep anti-environment crusader Sarah Palin off Discovery: (via @CREDOmobile) Pls RT

Not that I would share the whole thing, just a teaser. I want people to buy it!

I've heard about people getting kicked off Facebook all the time and they don't even know why. I don't think I could share my novel there.

One of my cousins is writing a Twitter novel which also pings to Facebook. I started a twitter novel but had trouble keeping up with it.

I am debating getting on Facebook. Everyone I know tends to fall into a time trap with it.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Not that I really care since I only ate 2 of them but there appears to be a f**kload of fat in those Mint Meltaways for their size. Oh well.

Twits beware! New rash of phishing. If you get a message that someone blogged about you or posted a pic of you DON'T click the link!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Eating Disorders: Health Risks and Prejudices - Blooming Psycho's New Strange World Today

Saving Face: Skin Cancer

Sally, for what it's worth, most scars look worse to the person who has them than they do to other people. I'm sure you look fine. You are right that women compromise their well being to try and conform to arbitrary standards of beauty. We have not come a long way when our daughters are still as obsessed with beauty as we were, and maybe even more so than we were. These are standards that no-one could achieve. Personally, I find more admiration for a woman who looks real and natural at whatever weight or age than one who has tons of plastic surgery.
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

Friday, March 19, 2010

ABC Paid Casey Anthony Family $200,000

Maybe someone can articulate why better than I can, but I find the fact that this money is going towards Casey Anthony's legal defense really galling. I guess they can spend it any way they want but why is ABC News paying them anything? I guess everything really is for sale. It doesn't surprise me, it just rubs me the wrong way.
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Rielle Hunter PICTURES: GQ Photos Called 'Repulsive'

The photos are far from porn, but "sexy but wholesome, like a mom should look?"

I'm pretty sure that if my mom was asked to do a photo shoot in a magazine, she would have her pants on in the pictures.

This woman's child is going to have to be in therapy for life because of her parents' skanky actions.
About Rielle Hunter
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

New planet discovered « Watts Up With That?

Cat-Calling, "Bystander Sexism," and How Sexual Harassment Hurts Men - The Sexist - Washington City Paper

Jesse James APOLOGIZES To Sandra Bullock & His Children Over Cheating Scandal

The Jesse James/Tiger Woods/John Edwards crocodile tear apology just really gets you right here. (pats self on ass)
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

It's official: Poseur Jesse James is a big dumb idiot

People like Jesse James "think" with their little head and then wonder why they can't stay in a relationship. Maybe this model is "hotter" than Sandra Bullock, but it actually wouldn't matter if Sandra was the Goddess Aphrodite at this point. What Jesse was thinking about was the thrill of the moment.

I certainly don't think he's all that he seems to think he is, and Sandra could surely do better. Unfortunately for her, it seems she gave him her best and he just gave her the shaft. I cannot muster any respect for him.
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

Wondering where this damn metatarsal pain is coming from all of a sudden.

I'm so over working the night shift! Can't wait till I have my nursing license and have other shift options. Will stay at current workplace.

Ugly Grace's Green Beer Scandal

PANSI Finds Lafayette Unchristinane FUNNY! Using the Livestrong MyPlate to try and track what I eat. Not trying to be skinny but would like to see.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Really want to get back to work on my little Twitter novel--kind of lost track. Main novel has been taking priority though.

Dichotomy: small vitamin pills are easier to swallow but harder to find if you drop them.

The brisket with Jack Daniels glaze and mashed potatoes were a big hit with my offspring. Thanks, Costco! ;-) Your own website filled with adsense ready links just $97. Check it out here.

Facebook | OTEP FOR OZZFEST 2010

Andrew Koenig's body found; 'My son took his own life,' father says | Ministry of Gossip | Los Angeles Times

Animal Rights Activists Split Over Bill to Save 'Oreos' (Gotham Gazette, Feb 2010)

Thursday, February 11, 2010

John Mayer Apologizes: I Was 'Arrogant' To Use N-Word

TLC Cooking "Top 10 Most Common Ingredients in Fast Food"

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

John Mayer is a freaking idiot. As we said in grade school, he thinks he's hot shit in a champagne glass but he's a cold turd in a paper cup

John Mayer: "My Dick Is Sort of Like a White Supremacist" | Women's Rights |

Sad--one of my son's high school friends may have died. He and another friend are trying to find out what happened.

Pantless Germans Flash Google Street View Car (VIDEO, NSFW)

Patrick Timoney's "Gun": Randy Cassingham's Blog

"Why does it take a life time to heal, and yet, only seconds to through it all away?" - by Chato B. Stewart

Once Upon A Desire: Jillian Michaels: The Biggest Liar?

Jillian Michaels: The Biggest Liar?

It comes as no surprise to me that fitness guru Jillian Michaels is being sued for overinflated claims about the effectiveness of her dietary supplement.
Most weight loss supplements contain high levels of caffeine which can initially promote minor weight loss due to an increase in energy. However, the pros are greater than the cons. Caffeine causes adrenal stress. Adrenal stress causes overproduction of cortisol, which causes the body to hold onto fat stores. Plus, if a person has hypertension or a heart condition, these supplements can actually pose a real danger to a person's health.
Taking a balanced whole vitamin supplement plus extra B vitamins if in a high stress lifestyle and EFA's for mood is enough for most people. There are other supplements which are safe and can be helpful for specific health conditions.
Actually, this news re: Ms. Michaels doesn't much surprise me. She doesn't seem like she actually likes people very much. I feel that her attitude towards the people she's supposed to be helping tends to be disdainful. She comes off like a drill sergeant.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

iamwriting writer's block busted, hammered out two new chapters. Pretty addictive!

iamwriting Going to try to actually write a chapter. I hate writer's block!

Ooh, too cold to walk the dogs this morning. 10 degrees Fahrenheit. They're doxies, not huskies! Here is a good cause for those concerned with an underrated area--mental health.

Monday, February 8, 2010

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Get with the program, Aurora! I swear, I have accomplished nothing of redeeming value today.


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Friday, February 5, 2010 It's H.R. Geiger's 70th birthday. His disabled mom depended on him for support. Please visit and give if you can

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Haven't eaten anything nutritionally valuable or accomplished a heck of a lot. Guess I best get on it!

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Protect Habitat for Critically Endangered Frogs | Ideas for Change in America |

Facebook | SAVE THE FROGS!

Hope for Haiti now

Boycott Cabela's and Sportsman's warehouse until they rescind their sponsorship of cowardly wolf hunting derbies.

Ear wax cleaner sucks more than Q-tips

Lesbian Albatrosses Mate After Male Lover Ditches Them | Strange | News | PEOPLE Pets

Protect wolves from "hunting sprees."

We MUST toughen cruelty to animal laws! - Blooming Psycho�s New Strange World Today

Going to get a cup of sock juice. If u have XXX site adult friend finder brings affiliate $ But spamming w/profile link=obnoxious!

McBeardos Midnight Movies REVIEW: Frank Henenlotter�s BAD BIOLOGY (2009)

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Watts Up With That?

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Pakistani ambassador rejected because his name is NSFW in Arabic | FP Passport AdSense Revenue guide

Had a pretty upsetting day yesterday. Am going to try to get back to writing today.

Why in the name of all that's holy and otherwise would I ever want to get emails from Ann Coulter?

Facebook | Voices Against Uganda's Anti-Homosexuality Bill

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Following the rules not enough to save Dallas couples' pets -

Fake Democrat Harold Ford Calls Opponent a "Young Lady" | Women's Rights |

Pet-Abuse.Com - Reporting Cruel Websites

Pet-Abuse.Com - Stopping Crush Videos

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Animal Legal Defense Fund Tips For Writing to Law Enforcement

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If there is a shard of decency in the world, let�s make �crush� videos illegal - Blooming Psycho�s New Strange World Today

Humane Society says animal crush videos increasing » Ventura County Star

Facebook | Help Put an End to Animal Crush Videos

Facebook | Anjellicle Cats Rescue's Photos - Fosters Needed

Husband getting ready for work. We need to get our schedules in sync. :-(

If I had a dollar for every word I've ever written, that would be pretty damn sweet!

It wasn't my intent to be up at this hour watching reruns of Angel. But at least I got another chapter written! Currently at 22030 words.

Think I'm going to try Weight Watchers Online. I don't care about being skinny or "hawt," but I'm frustrated. Something's gotta give!

If I'm going to be unable to sleep, I probably should work on something productive instead of playing games all night! This would be amazing cool. Wonder if there's a chance in hell I'll be able to go.

Monday, February 1, 2010

When I have to work a third shift it ends up throwing my sleep off for a few days after. The things we do for differential pay.

Test message for all my networking apps via Ping.

What the h-e-double-hockey-sticks could I have done with my stupid W-2? I hate it when I misplace things like that!

@marconifoods pic on their Twitter profile is making me hungry! If on FB, join the Ban MSG group. To Write Love on Her Arms WTF is wrong with this twisted bitch. Freaking sociopath!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Wish I could go back to bed. But I have to drag myself out to work third shift. Booooo!

Sometimes I can't believe what I find myself writing. Then I have to analyze where its coming from. Our past can really mess with our heads.

The Last Resort Small Dog Rescue (formerly The Poodle Preserve)

Seriously--aren't there far bigger "problems" in the world than homosexuality--which is not in fact a problem, it is a sexual orientation.

Facebook | Empowering Spirits Foundation: American Family Assoc. Radio Host: 'It's Time To Imprison All Gays'

Watching "Desperation" on Syfy. Need to get a little more sleep. Have to work third shift tonight. :-p

Follow @carelpedre, Haiti earthquake survivor for updates on Haiti.

Phone Detective | Wealthy Healthy and Wise

Think I'm finally caught up with follow backs and, unfortunately, a few blocks.

Another "hornymatches" Spammer blocked. These people drive me crazy!

Yes I write erotica, but that doesn't mean I won't block you if you're a XXXblackbook, Hornymatches, or other adult Spammer. Yikes! Check out the face on this evil satan spawn kid! Funny. So many dogs at this shelter, some need homes NOW! Visit.

RT @matadornetwork Fight leprosy. Fight stigma.

Friday, January 15, 2010

YouTube - KTLA Anchor Slams Perez Hilton

White House Says Haiti Statements by Robertson and Limbaugh Are �Really Stupid� - Political Punch

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Finally reading Motley Crue: The Dirt. Even if you're not a Crue fan (I am!) what a great book! If you like biographies this is a winner.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

If You Never Failed, You�ve Never Lived

DivineCaroline: Financial Planning and Career Building - DivineCaroline


The 15 most toxic places to live | MNN - Mother Nature Network

Streaaming Live News from Haiti

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Procrastinating. Had a meeting to go to for work today, now need to visit parents, but feel soooo lazy! And its rush hour. Ahg! stopthehate

Safeguarding Cyrus the Great Cylinder Petition

For any of you in Haiti or with relatives in Haiti my best wishes that everything will be okay for you. So sad about this disaster.

The Electric Egg Cream » STRIPPED ON THE RAILS

Help stop another bad idea from Alaska and save the Clean Air Act. @credomobile Pls RT CleanAirAct

BBC - dot.Maggie: 'I hate the net' - porn star Ron Jeremy stopthehate

BBC News - Having a big bum, hips and thighs 'is healthy' stopthehate

Help @FilmLadd and @JayLink_ stopthehate

stopthehate initiative

StoptheHate Day on Twitter | THE CHRIS VOSS SHOW

Monday, January 11, 2010

I now have 15,978 words and 58 pages in my manuscript!

Ask the Publishing Guru: Why Every Author Should Blog & Use Social Media

Recession Generation Will Spend Less for Life -

Sneezing my head off for no apparent raisin.

Ralphie the buffalo - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Arresting Ana

Should Pro-Anorexia Websites Be Banned? | Women's Rights |

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Lazy Aurora needs to go do some actual work taking care of people. I don't feel like taking care of anybody tonight! So uninspired. :-(

Ooookay, Ping, why am I having to log in twice??? Nevermind, adding new networks. Hopefully it will be a slow night!

How much sense does it make that a person with as much padding as I have is cold all the time? You'd think that I'd stay nice and toasty!

It still gets dark way too early and I have to work another night shift tonight. :0p Want to walk the dogs before it gets dark.

I got a Mr. Coffee brand tea brewer which I'm addicted to and a Jack LaLanne juicer that I'm just learning how to use. So far I love it!

Also made a resolution to stay hydrated. Have my water bottle with the measure on the side. But its usually full of herbal tea. got the buffalo jerky and the fruit stix. A bit expensive but way better than store bought. Worth the price!

Resolving to eat more vegetables and fruits and fewer processed foods for snacks rather than to lose x number of pounds. Also more exercise.

On a personal note I'm not unrealistic enough to try and get skinny (would be stupid--I'm a big woman) but I would like to lose a little.

He'd start out by being a pal, showing Eddy how to improve his style. This was going to be a real challenge with Mr. Pocket Protector.

That wouldn't be good, seeing as he had to live with Redhead Ed all year. Jacob didn't like having stalkers. So he knew he had to go slow.

Jacob could see trouble if he tried to school Eddie in the manlier skills right away. This desperate deuce would just fall in love with him.

The other fellows in the dorm called him Edgar Hand-Rat. The implication was that Eddy spent a lot of time stroking his "hand rat."

Jacob's roommate was a dorky fellow named Edgar Haanraats. He was pink-skinned, green-eyed, and carroty-colored curly hair. Not a stud.

Jacob went to the big state university where he knew a guy like him should have no trouble finding many willing partners. He was right.

This story is all in fun. There won't be any real tragedies--like this episode of Law & Order SVU I just watched. Wow, that was messed up!

Decided to call my little Twitter Novel "All Natural Jay" in honor of its randy hero, Jacob Nagel.

Wow, have been so busy on everything else over the holidays! Time for a little creative space. Move over, everybody, Big Aurora is here!